I don’t like being quiet. I’ve always have strong faith with everything and everyone, especially. Why is it that whenever I try to say something positive while everyone else is going through bad vibes, I get bullied instead, telling me things such as “shut up” or “don’t you feel bad?” and whatever random things they say to me? Am I supposed to be always quiet all the time when everyone is in a bad mood state? Is that what I should be doing?
Like I said before, my faith is very strong, so strong that it’s impossible to be broken by any situation or any type of bad news. I always look at the light of things rather than the dark, but at the same time I also side with reality. Whatever reality may come, I just accept it, one way or the other. But if it’s something that can draw a lot of solutions to the problem, I focus on the possible solutions first rather than the problem itself and the effects that can be drawn to it.
Sometimes it makes me wonder if everyone in there think I exist. I want to continue on with the good vibes mantra for everyone. I’m not saying we should be too confident with everything, however spreading all the bad vibes all over, blurting out their anger and frustration and whatever the hell they throw out in public and then telling other people off to “shut up” and other things just because they want them to stop and look at a different approach isn’t going to help at all. At the same time when people tell me to “shut up,” I cringe big time because I hate those words. It’s beyond hurtful. It’s one of my biggest personal pet peeves ever.
And yet, I never received one single sorry from those who tell me those two words. Why? Am I really that inferior?
I wanted to write all this in there as some kind of a personal SONA, but now is the bad time to tell them because everyone is in good vibes again. I just want people to understand me and where I’m coming from, that’s all I wanted to do when it comes to periods such as that one. Instead I always get the shrug off or they’d only listen to me if I talk about something that’s unrelated to the bad vibes situation.
Whatever happened to the good vibes mantra? Am I the only one who actually understood behind that term or do we just have different definitions to that term?
I have feelings too, you know. I’m human. Don’t ever say that I got no heart or that I don’t care if I say something different than the rest whenever we’re in bad vibes mode. Not only that it doesn’t equate to the good vibes mantra, but it makes me feel inferior whenever you tell me to “shut up” when I say something that’s different or opposite from your mood.
Or what about this question. Do I really belong with you guys? Sure, when it comes to my contributions, such as graphic work, admin work, and being a moderator because I do it all for true love and it seems that’s the only time that you guys would actually pay attention to me or give me compliments. But when it comes to opinions or even attempting to make things better for everyone, I feel like I’m not worthy enough to be in that position that only leads me to staying silent.
As I said before, I don’t like being quiet.
I’m epic fail again, it seems.