I was prompted to ask this question to myself today because of today’s events offline. Why? Because I want to constantly remind myself that there are a lot more important things to think about than petty complaints and negativity that really shouldn’t be affecting me. Still, I am annoyed with a few things that’s going on right now, especially when friends are getting affected by it, and if it wasn’t for my busy offline line, I would’ve said something right now and tell those people off to get off their high horses and ask themselves this question (the title of this entry).
What are you thinking about today?
I am thinking about my dad, who bravely held one of our very rare family meetings about his condition and his thoughts and feelings. He invited my middle sister over for a traditional Californian dinner1 and I came down to talk to her about my painting project for the brother’s wedding. I thought about the words my dad advised us after the news and that we should always keep in mind from this point on: “There are many things that could happen that is beyond our control. The only thing that we could do is to move forward with our heads up high.”
I am thinking about my mom, who stood by dad when he had his doctor’s appointment. Being a warrior herself, if she can go through what she has gone through years ago, she knows Dad can battle like a warrior should. My sister and I are somewhat warriors, but we have our pens and our art as our weapons. I know that’s unrelated, but in a way, it is. And from that…
I am thinking about my diabetes, in which I continue on maintaining my new habits of taking care of myself. Food (in combinations of all types) in moderation, lots of movement,2 coffee in the morning and tea at night (sometimes there’s coffee later in the afternoon too), and more movement. I guess in a way, that is where my warrior instincts kick in.
I am thinking of my brother and his bride-to-be, as they are out there on their European cruise trip. In turn, I think of my parents again, who should have been in that cruise trip with them if it weren’t for dad’s condition. I prayed last month for dad’s recovery and make it to that cruise, but then, between the call of the cruise and the call of the doctor, we all chose the call of the doctor. I pray for them and their safe return, and of course, more blessings for them as the countdown continues to their big day.
I am thinking about next week, my new work schedule, in which I no longer have to work on Sundays. I requested for that schedule change because for one thing, I am really tired working on Sundays. But for some reason in the past before I made this schedule change request that I really had to stop working on Sundays for a whole lot more important reason. Sunday was the only time that (almost) everyone is free for a get-together. I miss spending time with my family (that is, with the siblings, not just with the parents), going out to places. After the “family meeting” earlier today, I felt like requesting a schedule change (and goodness it was approved) that I really felt that I made the right decision.
I am thinking about my friends, who I am aware have made mistakes in the past and are now working on redeeming themselves and making things right. Many people change for the better, but sadly, there are those who turn the blind eye from their mistakes and just continue on living like they’ve done nothing wrong. It’s bad enough that they have been reprimanded for the mistakes they have done in the past and are still being reprimanded even when they’ve already made their own personal amends. If we’re talking about the ones who can’t get over themselves, it would be those whose reprimands have converted into plain cyber bullying.
I am thinking about my classes, of course. I couldn’t seem to go through my Sinatra classes because of so many errors that I’ve been suffering through my Ruby (and gems) installation. I should be almost finished because we’re hitting the middle of September. I was to earn my certification in early October, but with the things going, I’m completely delayed.
Last, but not least…
I am thinking about happiness. Not just my own happiness, but the happiness of my family, my friends, and everyone else around the world. I know it’s easier said than done and that there are many people out there in the world suffering from so much hate. All I could do right now is to hope and pray, wishing for the whole world to have their own happiness once again.
So now, it’s your turn.
What are you thinking about today?